Thursday, December 4, 2008

Many Months Later...

"I must lose myself in action, lest I rather in despair."

The story that I am about to tell you is not a very interesting one but somehow it has changed most of everything in my life presently.I still remember, somewhere in February this year(2008)...the atmosphere was fantastic on that day, the people are very ambitious, they are talking about one thing, tonight friendly's match(futsal) against a team that i used to played with before. I and a few of my friends are busy preparing ourselves as we look for a victory against them. The game started very well. I have done my job and played my part very well by providing my striker with great and excellent passes of the ball. We take the lead by few goals and as the Skipper(caiptain) of the team, I felt the victory is on our side."A man who has no problems is out of the game." That is the best line of words which described what happened next.I was running with the ball, avoiding tackles from the opponents as I see an opportunity to send a "screamer" pass the goalie. I took my chance, I jumped and as I tried to land on my right leg, it suddendly changed its direction with the leading out, twisting the knee; then followed by a loud popping sound (pop!)."

The anterior cruciate ligament (or ACL) is one of the four major ligaments of the knee.The ACL is the most commonly injured knee ligament and is commonly damaged by athletes. The ACL is often torn during sudden dislocation, torsion, or hyperextension of the knee. Swelling that is usually attributed to bleeding from the tear may cause pressure and some discomfort, but ACL injuries are never severely painful. It is a very common injury in football, hockey, skiing, skating (and other field sports) due to the enormous amount of pressure, weight, and torque the knee must withstand. Sudden high pressure contact, especially side on. Generally if the knee is locked, and the leg is firmly planted, then there is a much greater risk of injury"...Wikipedia.

Thats it. My friend took me to the specialist nearby and the doctor (Dato' Dr. Syeid) said "the most encouraging aspect of the bad news is you have a torn ACL". That should be the last thing that I want to hear from a doctor.I cried like a boy in front of everybody probably thinking of what is going to happen next. I am flashing my self on a wheel chair, with crouches...not be able to jump, to run like the wind,to kick the ball as hard as before and most of have the same passion and desire on the field due to my limitations."When we have lost everything, including hope, life becomes a disgrace, and death is a duty." I have no word to described my feeling at that time.6 hours of surgery,2 weeks in the hospital, 10 weeks with crouches, 10 weeks of physiotheraphy (I hate those electric device that they used to stimulate my muscle) and "6 month on the sideline at least" said the Doctor."Just remember, even the original ACL could not hold on and went missing, what you got with you right now is only a spare one". Thank you doctor for your "encouragement".

"I have missed more than 1000 shots in my playing time. I have lost almost 100 matches. On severals occassions I have been entrusted to take the game winning shot . . . and missed. And I have failed over and over and over again in my life.But...when you lost a game, nothing is lost; when your character is lost, all is lost."

I will be back. =)

Wednesday, June 4, 2008

Memoirs of Haddah.

Friendship is a term used to denote co-operative and supportive behavior between two or more humans. This article focuses on the notion specific to interpersonal relationships. In this sense, the term connotes a relationship which involves mutual knowledge, esteem, and affection along with a degree of rendering service to friends in times of need or crisis.
Wow...i don't even really understand those scientific, yet so sophisticated definition of Friendship. Today i want to talk about Frienship. On how do my friendship with all these people started and how do we cherish every moment that we have togather. I am gonna miss all these moments since I am leaving them soon for a new job. I ll have new bosses, new friends, new workplace,new desk,new drawer,new this, new that,new bla..bla..bla..but, one thing that I am very sure is, i will always keep all this "old" memories alive, here in me... and you ll see why...

My early days with my lovely colleagues start as a casual ones.

As we are getting closer to each other... we love each other.

We treat each others like brothers and sisters

Even sometimes we disagree each other... we are still a "big" family forever.

We do crazy things we are in our own world.

But now hardly I have to say goodbye...

But all of you remain in my heart untill the day I die.

Monday, June 2, 2008

The First and The Last...

"Well, it had to happen one day. My time here with all of you is coming to an end. I've been given an opportunity that suits me too well for me to say no. But i want you to know that this decision was hardly to make and i hope nobody thinks that i am being disloyal by making one of the biggest move in my life.
I've made it after a lot of soul searching and i believe its the right decision for me. People will know that I've always given my best here and you have made me very welcome. I have learn a lot about the bitterness, sweetness, good or even bad side of life here. I do believe by given away your current "life", you ll be granted a new one.Then its up to us on how do we want it to be or how we want it to end and i choose to end it like this.
Million of thanks to all of you, The Management team, to my lovely colleagues, my dearest brothers & sisters for the great experiences. Also, million apologise for my unintentionally behaviour that has caused all of you a hard time & uncomfortable feeling.
I ll guess, it is time to lay down the curtain, time for me to give my final bow to the audience who has seen my "life" here for more than 2 years.
Every ending has a new beginning, every goodbye has a new welcome that awaits for me on the other side. Till then i wish all of you good luck and success in your future.
Thank you and best wishes..."
Sekali baca, lain macam je bunyi ucapan ni (Macam suicide note). Hehehe... anyway, that is my farewell speech which I've wrote in only half an hour before i deliver it. Untuk pengetahuan semua, this is the FIRST time I tulis blog and the LAST day I bekerja kat sini. (that's were the title came from). Kerja dekat mana? Let's say somewhere in the centre of Kuala Lumpur. Many things that I had gone through for this couple of years. I have never thought, even for a while that i ll be spending my time here writting my story to be read by others. I dont even have my own diary or jurnal selama i hidup dimuka bumi ini!!!
But, believe it or not, i telah dipengaruhi oleh anasir - anasir yang kata " you tulis lah, boleh kawan - kawan you baca bila you kat tempat keja baru nanti."kata *TOr i. *Qayyiem pulak kata " Blog ni boleh isi masa you & share your story". So? I pun terimalah dengan memeterai perjanjian bersama kawan- kawan supaya membantu i mencipta blog ini sebab technically I tak buta IT cuma I malas jer nak buat...(hahaha,tak ngaku punye budok yang bute IT!!!). So bermula lah misi yang pertama : cari name. It came out that i want to use my nickname at home which is :CHAKPI.
Then nak letak title ape...*Oppa sugessted "Kakiku Tempang"!...aduh botak...*Bega pulak kata "kaki kanan ku yang kaku". Adegumm....So macam - macam lah idea - idea yang boleh diketengahkan tetapi tidak diluluskan oleh Lembaga Pengarah. Jadi setalah meneliti dan isu ini dicatatkan dalam minit mesyuarat, kami sebulat suara bersetuju memberi tajuk "The FIRST and The Last".
Actually tujuan I tulis blog ni, sebab i wanna share a small piece of my sincere feelings to my desrest friends yang tak dapat bersama - sama dgn i hari ni. A wise man has told me, "man most sincere feeling is when it comes to a farewell speech." So,*Che Mat Poya, (which i feel little bit sad due you are not here), ucapan ini untuk u and by creating this blog we ll stay connected to each other.
To *Tor, thanks for the most memorable and valueable experiences that i have gained from you. Sorry sebab selalu pukul - pukul u, (yelah manjakan sgt kain sutera tu,inilah jadinye!) but trust me I never meant that, its only kidding. To my *Qayyiem, you are the most beautiful things that God ever created and sent to me for me to love, to share laughters and tears and even to spent my entire life with.HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABY - JUNE 02.
To Botak a.k.a *Oppa, Aku nak ko tahu yang ko tetap kawan baik aku even kita tak selalu lepak same2 lagi and aku faham ko ada cara "berhibur" sendiri degan kawan2 "baru" kita. Apa - apa pun, jaga diri diri ko and *Bega sekali (the cutest but deadliest lady I ve ever meet with her voice) and Good luck with your life (sain cek Botak!!!) and your future.
So, my idea dah kering, Si Milatul pun dah tak sabar2 nak ke pasar malam mencari nasi ayam Che Mat, I guess this is the end ......of my first chapter for my new blog. Hopefully I ll countinue writting (Supaya you all boleh tahu ape yang berlaku dgn kaki i sebenarnye?) and wish me the best in pursuing my new "life".
Love You all.
*Qayyiem - Aka mak Koutam,also some one that i love.
*Tor - my best ever Mentor...
*Botak aka Oppa - one of my best buddy here.
*Bega - Oppa's girlfriend aka Seven11.
*Che Mat Poya aka Hunch - True brother.
*Milatul - Orang kuat Tun aka housemate i.